i think here nobody will know who i am ,i can talk freely,if anybody see what i wirte ,what you think ?
i am a girl,boin in 1984,finished college ,graduate in 2007,till now have leave school 3years,what i get and what i learn in these years,what happen i n my life ,who i met ,what i doing ,what i earn ,what i do to my family ,sometime when i think this ,i will hate myself ,many times if i dont do this ,what will happen to my life ,after doing i will regret,now all my family menber like to point out the thing i do is wrong ,i had spoit my life,and my future how to do ,baby how to do ,their are disappoint for my life ,not happy for me ,till now ,more and more i feel money so important ,if you dont have money ,you dont like to contact wiht you friend ,you dont like to stay with you family ,it look like you have leave the society,why i sad this ,because you marry somebody dont give what you want ,before you family menber had tell you dont choose this person ,he will not let you enjoy you life ,he so far to you ,dont marry him ,but i dont listen ,i believed the one i marry can give me good life ,i dont care now he have money or not , i bring money for him to do businese,because i trust him can get profit for me ,he is a duty man ,he can take care of the family ,all will be have bright future for me ,this year many thing happen to him ,let his businese can not moving very well ,all involve big money ,when he tell me the problem ,it will let me not happy ,how can life same like this,i suppose have money ,for him doing this container businese ,let me lost and warry ,how i can happy to him,weather he tell me truth or lie,too much problem come out,how i give my parens money back,the is a big money ,how i give it back ,if i dont borrow the money ,i think i will not marry him ,now it had happen already,and i had marry him ,baby had born ,so what i will do can let my life better .
when a chinese marry a foreigner ,if the foreigner is black come form africa ,and dont have money ,need to borrow somebody money to star businese,can you marry him,in this time ,this century ,very hard can see sombdoy do it ,alreast the person very rich can give some money to him,to star businese together ,otherwise the person bring money is a fool,when this things not happen to you,you must said the person must is a fool,he never do it ,also me i also can not do that ,but it happen to my life ,when i know him ,he had change my life ,let me walk and walk far away others,let me face this life ,let me have too much thinking ,now nobody give me support ,what i hope is get the money back for my parens,i dont want them to talk always ,if the money is complete ,i dont need to owe them too much ,for the money i borrow from my parents ,it give me too much pressure ,not for the person i marry ,is for the money i borrow ,0.3million,how many people can bring this money for others to do businese ,and the people use 30%of his proterrly to give his son in law to star busines,how the person not warry ,when he see his dauther live a not good condition ,.
god ,pls help me ,help my husband can have a good future ,let my son can go a nice school,now he businese not moving fine ,let me and my family and him warry,continue same like this ,how i can stay with him,how i can happy to him,he had suffer,he had lost very well ,it had enough it his life ,god birng good luck to him ,not suffer him and me agian,let he can come back china,let me can stay with him,let my son can happy for the mother and father ,let us to be rich,so others will be stop talking ,
any time my family tell me i divoice ,leave him ,leave my son ,marry a rich man ,for me ,i am not sure myself weather can trust others again ,eventhough i met a person is rich,weahter he can love me ,or he will not think i stay with him is for money ,ourside good looking not means inside is happy ,but now i am so warry my future ,i dont like others different sight to look at me ,talking to me anyhow ,i dont like this ,for the person i marry ,had let my life not common ,had let me stay a different life,but the life not wonderful for me now ,what time i can enjoy life ,
today i write this ,just to show i am not happy ,nobody understand me ,inside me i scare ,how i face my parents if i dont have the money to give them back ,my son how to do ,
