Always  and  Never  Enough----Anonymous   

It is a warm afternoon,incandescent（白热的）.Each leaf looks lit from within.I am walking home across a field when I see asmall brown head poking out of a patch of lowbush blueberries.The creature doesn't flee as I approach and stop,astonished.It is a fawn（小鹿）,sleek and newly minted,regarding me from the spot where it landed on earth.We both stare.The fawn tests my scent,flaring its nostrils as I slowly back away.The next morning it's gone,but there's a small,oval（卵形的）depression on the ground.I press my hands into the flattened bushes.
       一个极其炎热的午后，每片叶子仿佛都着了火。我穿过田野回家，忽然看见蓝莓丛里探出一个褐色的小脑袋。我悄悄走上前，小家伙并不躲闪，太奇怪了，我赶忙收住脚步。这是头初生的小鹿，皮毛又滑又亮，正目不转睛地瞅着我。相视片刻，我缓缓抽身离去，小鹿却凑上来，翕动鼻翼，嗅了嗅我。第二天早晨，小鹿不见了，地上留下一个小小的、圆圆的印迹，我轻轻将双手按在上面。
      Though I cross that corner of the field nearly every day,I've not seen another fawn since.That's the way it is withwonder.
      后来我常常穿行于田野之中，却再也没见到小鹿，上回的偶遇算得上是“奇缘”了。
      When my husband and I moved to this skinny finger ofMaine five years ago,we immediately set out on foot toexplore the half-wild land and shore around our rented house.Like the wilder creatures here,we have worn our own surreptitious（秘密的)trail through fields and woods,a mile-long path we call"the loop".It passes within a few feet of where that fawn was born.
      5年前，我和丈夫搬来缅因州这块贫瘠的土地上，寓所附近是几近原始的森林和海滩。刚安顿下来，我俩就开始徒步探险。不久，我们也像其他动物那样，开辟出自己的秘密通道，有一英里长，并唤做“幽径”，离上次小鹿降生的地点不到几英尺。
       I am walking past this spot again,on a cool springevening,my brain still buzzing with the distractions（烦恼的事） of theday.A white throated sparrow calls from a spruce,releasingits song of longing.As I whistle back,the notes carry me outof my head and into the world.The sparrow's song is theBuddhist's bell.Attention please,your presence is requestedin the here and now.I am trying to show up.
      一个凉爽的春夜，我再次来到这儿，脑袋里塞满了白天的烦心事，嗡嗡作响。这时，云杉之巅，一只白喉雀绽放歌喉，唱响渴望之歌。我吹了声口哨当做回应，简单的音符顿时让我忘却烦忧，融入宇宙。这鸟儿的歌声好比清悦的梵钟，令人解脱。亲爱的读者请留心，我要向您展示这美好的一切了。
       Strands（缕） of a spider's silk cling to my face as I enter the woods.The air smells of balsam.Coyotes have traveled this path,Leaving twists of scat flecked with bone in the middle of the trail.A pack roamed（徘徊）this peninsula（半岛）last fall,waking us all in the middle of the night with their yips and howls,and taking cats,including mine.I never found his bones,so I buried crocus bulbs instead.I don't blame the coyotes any more than the sharp-shinned hawk that salks chickadees atour birdfeeder.It is the oldest way.Blood into feather,berryinto flight.
       我迈入丛林，几缕蛛丛拂过面庞。空气中弥漫着凤仙花的甜香。附近曾有野狼出没，小路上散落着猎物的骨头。去年秋天，半岛上狼群猖獗，居民们常在半夜三更被狼嚎惊醒。它们还偷吃家猫，其中包括我的猫儿。由于找不到它的尸骨，我葬下些藏红花苞聊以自慰。尽管如此，我从不怨恨野狼，正如我原谅了凶猛的苍鹰猎捕了山雀一样，因为，弱肉强食是自然界最古老的准则。
      The more I walk this small circle of the planet,the moreit calls me.I am out here at all hours,in all seasons,following intimations（暗示）of mystery（神秘事物）in the rustling of leaves,a slant of light,a flash of feathers.I couldn't tell you exactly what I'm looking for.Only that I've been searching since I can remember,and that what reveals itself is always and never enough.
      漫步幽径，大自然越来越吸引我了。我成天徜徉其间，捕捉着神秘世界的启示，或许是沙沙轻响的叶片，或许是斜斜的日光，或许是一闪而过的羽毛……我说不准自己要找些什么，只知道，记忆中我一直在寻觅，而我的丰富收获比起广博的自然，就如同沧海一粟。
      Life converges（凝聚）in these woods.Deer rut in the fall anddrop fawns in the spring,unceremoniously（冒冒失失地）in the middle of the field.Salamander and frog eggs swell and hatch in vernal（春天的）pools.Underground,the trees share nutrients with their neighbors through an unimaginably vast and invisible network of fungi.　
      森林里生机盎然。鹿群在这里尽情嬉戏，然后就冒冒失失地在旷野里下崽。蝾螈和青蛙的卵在潺潺春水里长大孵化。地下，树木通过一张无边的真菌的网，分享各种养分。
      In the five years I've been walking this patch of earth,I've covered some ground but barely scratched the surface.Ican tell a red spruce from a white,name a handful of mossesand lichens,recognize sarsaparilla when I see it,identifymost of the birds and many of their songs.you'd think thiswould be enough.But knowing a name of a song or the shape ofa leaf is only the beginning,a first,tentative step towardintimacy（亲昵，亲密）.Falling in love with the world is like falling in love with a person.Before you know it,you're in deep.
      5年来，我的足迹遍布林中，可对它的了解还很肤浅。我分得清红云杉和白云杉，叫得出一些青苔和地衣的名字，还认得菝葜，认得许多鸟儿，分得清它们不同的鸣唱声。也许你会说这已足够了，但实际上，仅仅知道一个名字，一声鸟啼或一片树叶的形状，才刚刚是开始，是人类亲近自然的第一步——试探性的一步。爱上这个世界犹如爱上一个人，不知不觉地，你已深陷其中了。

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